Monday, May 28, 2018

Joe Jonas - See No More

For some reason this song really resonates with me today.... It's struck cords for me for the last few months and describes me at the moment. At the moment I find it hard to write about how I'm really feeling for some reason.

It's like the words I wrote the other night on Facebook saying "Sometimes words can not be found on a page... Yet they can be found in a heart."

You may have the feeling yet are somehow stuck.. somehow are there for no reason of their own.

The limbo land is messing with your head. Having Asperger's Syndrome makes it harder in these types of situations. Where you don't up from down... Left from right...

Some people have said thing a while ago about my ex that has really beein messing with my head as I don't know if they are true or not... It's a mystery that I can't work out...

Untitled
Sometimes saying nothing hurts
Silence is worse than words sometimes
This limboland 
Which only goes to no-where'sville.
Stuck between a rock & a hard place
Set me free
Communication is best
To let me know
What's going on.
A bird waitng
To fly & find it's wings
Once again
I can see the sky
Yet stuck on the ground
So we shall see what happens.... 





ddd

Saturday, May 26, 2018

Faker - This Heart Attack







"This Heart Attack" song says a lot at the moment.. I haven't heard it in years so I thought that I would share it with you guy's .

I haven't written a blog post in some time yet that is another long story there within itself.

Sometimes words can not be found on a page yet they can be found in a heart.............

Something for you to think about...

Tuesday, February 6, 2018

Roxette - Listen To Your Heart (Etip Dubstep Remix)


This is a very moving version of this song in Dubstep.... Makes me think about things a lot.... It also bring back memories as well...

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

2017 Summary

I just wanted to wish you a Happy New Year everyone reading.... I hope that you have had a really good one doing whatever you did to celebrate it!! I also hope that 2017 was a really good one for you as well where ever you are...
For me the end of 2016 from the 29th November things went downhill with a freak accident that happened to me. Then 2017 I had another freak accident on the 9th of January which left me virtually housebound for months and more pressure on Deb. During 2017 there were a lot of things happening with quite a few scary health issues coming up for me. It was very scary for Deb and I yet also my family as well. Including a mysterious stomach thing where I lost about 18 to 19 kilograms in about 2 or 3 months because I could hardly keep anything down even with anti nausea tablets. I've written a draft blog post yet decided not to publish it at this time... I'm still editing it down quite a bit as well which needs to be done.
The 23rd of August was a significant day in quite a few ways and also a very shocking day as well. It was that day on our 3 year and 3 month anniversary to the day Deb came home from work and broke it off with me out of the blue. The reason being was she was so sick of me being sick and recovering from my health issues. She was also sick of how long that it was taking and blamed me for it when it wasn't my fault for any of this happening to me. She didn't want to stick through it. Deb gave up on me and us.
 From that day on a lot of things changed very dramatically and really quickly at the same time. The year 2017 so far was one of the hardest years of my life and for this to happen made it a thousand times worse. I was totally devastated and everything was everywhere for me. There was a lot of things that I could have handled better under normal circumstances. Yet I guess that is part of life with living and learning.
2017 was one of the darkest years for me in every way and I was at my lowest points several times as well. Yet during the year I did find help and support for the first time in a very long time which I needed to do. It's also been because of the mighty God's help and grace that I'm through this year. God was there for me and still is there for me... I'm sorry for not keeping my blog up to date yet I had so much taken out of me this year in 2017. With my Asperger's Syndrome I also found so many different things extremely overwhelming as well.  I'm taking a day at a time at the moment yet will do more blogging to keep you guys more up to date... So 2018 is a new year... And Happy New Year to you and all your friends, family and loved ones.....



Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Sunrise, Edwina B: 2 June 2016

One typical early morning I was watching that show on channel 7 called "Sunrise". I saw Edwina Bartholomew driving around  in a car around some mystery suburb in Sydney. The camera only showed them on the inside of the car and driving which looked mildly familiar with the streets.

The School
Thinking nothing really of it I was doing my usual morning routine trying to keep warm on a cold winters day. On of of the next crosses for the segment for 'The Dream Machine' where "Sunrise" makes your dreams come true, something amazing happened. I heard the name of the local school that my brother went to as a kid for a short time. It is also about a ten minute walk away from me as well. They gave the school some money and food from Coles Supermarkets in a truck. So as soon as I saw the segment I was up, out the door and walking to the old school to see if I could meet Edwina.
Edwina and I

My thoughts were racing as fast as my walking because I did not expect a member of the "Sunrise" crew in the local neighborhood. Upon getting to the school I saw a lot of school kids and a few parents standing around talking. The truck was still there as well which was good. In the distance I saw the lady who looked a bit like Edwina. On closer inspection it turned out that it wasn't her yet a mother talking. I took a picture from a distance of the mother thinking it was Edwina which it wasn't and thus felt really embarrassed. Yet the mother did direct me to where Edwina was standing talking which was great.

Making my way over to Edwina I saw a sea of red uniforms with little heads bobbing around with the occasional adult about. It looked like the TV crew had already gone yet it was still good to see that she was still hanging around talking. She was about my height yet seemed to be wearing boots with heals. After a couple of the kids scattered I introduced myself and shook her hand. To my surprise she was friendly and we had a bit of a chat amidst a few photo's. I also told her and her producer how impressed about how they were supporting the local school and what a great idea the segment was. It's not often big TV networks visit the local area helping out. Walking out of the school I had a sense of pride and happiness that it happened so close to where I live.

The School
Also with something like that it meant a whole lot to this school and the community around it. Maybe today have a look around and see if you can do a random act of kindness for someone. If you don't have a chance today then do it in the near future. Who knows?!... You might affect someone's life in a big way. If you want you can also give me your feed back.....

Have a great day everyone...



The 'Look Alike' Mum On The Right

The School


Edwina and I

The School

The School

The School

The School

The School

Edwina and I

The School

Edwina and I



Monday, September 26, 2016

Baulkham Hills Exhibition: 31st May 2016

The  other month I was part of an exhibition at Baulkham Hills being run by The Benevolent Society. It was called "The See Me, Hear Me" program promoting art work done by people living with mental health issues. I also gave a talk there about my book and how the art was good for me.

Here are some photo's from it....

My Three Photo's

My Three Photo's

My Three Photo's

My Three Photo's

My Three Photo's

My Three Photo's

My Three Photo's

My Three Photo's

My Three Photo's

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition


The Exhibition

The Exhibition

The Exhibition

Thursday, August 25, 2016

Storm On Northern Beaches: 6 June 2016 - Part Two

This is part two of the blog with the storm damage from Collaroy. The pictures say it all how much devastation that there actually was from the terrible storm.