A Belated Happy Mothers Day!!!

This is a little late...since last Sunday two or three days ago. It's a belated happy Mother's day to everyone out there!! I hope that you had a very special and magical day with your children. This year I couldn't see my Mum because I wasn't feeling well yet both my brother and I did call her to wish her a very nice day. She said that she just worked and had a quietish day. So wasn't that bothered that it was like 'an ordinary day' in her words.


Thinking about it that Mothers day can be every day making sure that your always thinking about and caring for your parents. My parents have supported me so much while I was writing my book "My Life With Asperger's". Not just one day a year yet to celebrate the people who literally made you. Don't try to think of the details yet what they have done in a lot of ways is totally amazing....
A mother has given up and sacrificed so much for her kids over her lifetime. Some things we may never know how much yet that is life.....

So in a sense Mothers day is a celebration of a giving birth, cherishing and nurturing of life!
All the mother out there are all very special and very much appreciated....Happy Mothers Day once again!!

Also to my own Mum.... I love you so much and a very big thankyou for always being there for me no matter what!! I really do appreciate it!!

Dealing With My Depression

Over the past couple of months I've been feeling more and more depressed because of a few reasons. Each day seemed to be getting worse until last week on Tuesday night it got to be totally unbearable. Also my parents have been away for the past couple of weeks with their work which can't be avoided. What was more annoying was you can't contact their mobile phone over there. I texted my brother who was busy until after Easter which wasn't good. Also I texted this christian family who happened to be overseas in New Zealand on holidays. All types of thoughts were going through my head that I hadn't had in a long time and they were scaring me a lot.

I was alone in my unit trying to keep it together yet couldn't for what ever reasons. As a last ditch effort to reach out I remembered my ex who once said that if needed I could contact. Yet at the same time my ex for whatever reason has decided no contact with me. So I swallowed my pride and sent a text early in the morning to say how bad I really was and needed someone to talk to. I was hoping to get a phone-call back so I wouldn't feel so alone. Yet no phone-call or text message came and I felt even more alone then ever.

Not only had I lost my ex yet I have lost the friendship as well which has been hurting like hell. For five years of knowing each-other it is like I have lost my best friend whom I have ever had.
I've been trouble understanding it and my Asperger's has been getting in the way as well. It feels like a death and I have been floundering... I hate the thought of not seeing some-one that I care for never ever again. I was brought up to believe that good friends can always work things out no matter what! For me "Anne Of Green Gables" really strikes a chord with me of how close Anne and her friend Dianna are like 'Kindred Spirits'. For me it was like my friend and I were like awesome kindred spirits. It was like we were a real blessing for one another in a lot of ways.

I wonder if having Asperger's you feel things more deeply when it has to do with losing people who were really close to you. Or trying to understand loss and grief? I know that I really do appreciate people like the friendship I've lost. Also there a some other people who I feel close to also but it is rare for me. At the moment I feel like I can't really trust people any more and I don't want to get hurt again. It feels like there's a person shaped hole in my heart where this friendship once was. Can anyone else identify with feelings like that? At the moment I'm having trouble dealing with my depression yet I'm still trying to step forward everyday. I know that this post doesn't really have any answers yet it is just the way I've been feeling at the moment....For a while I've been thinking about doing a post of or called "Loss Of A Friendship!" yet been in two minds.... I suppose this is the closet as I have got to it. Yes sometimes I feel it is better to let things out then to hold things in....So I hope that this does help some how in someway that it can be good to say things the way they are.....
Until next time.......Cheers and take care!

Happy Birthday Cam!!

Twas my brother Cameron's birthday on Saturday 9th April. On that day I didn't get to see him because he was away with his girlfriend Rachael doing romantic things. So I did what I normally do on birthdays and that is ringing him up singing "Happy birthday to you......etc."

What was funny this time I was walking around a DVD shop trying to choose a DVD to hire. It felt strange not seeing my brother yet just to talk to him meant a whole lot to me. Yet over the weekend we all decided to meet up on the Monday night to meet up in Glebe for dinner. The menu of the night was Mexican at "The Fajita Sister's" which had a wall of pain even! Not what some of you may be thinking yet referring to the range of heat of their different chilli sauces.

For a Monday night it was packed out and the staff mucked up our reservation for a table of five so we all squeezed into a four seater upstairs which was quieter. We all managed to hear ourselves really well even though I was touching knees with my brother and the table.

After that we still decided to have a Spanish type of flavour and walk to "San Churro's" down the road and had dessert there. Although Rachael My brothers girlfriend had a mint flavoured very sweet hot chocolate. Instead of walking out of there we all nearly rolled out with everything that we ate. Outside near my parents car birthday presents were given yet I couldn't give anything to my brother as of yet but told him I'll give him something next time I saw him. The reason being is he's a bit hard to buy for. I also did take a few photos that night yet haven't uploaded them yet onto my computer.

With fond farewells we send our goodbyes to each-other after such a great shared evening celebrating my brothers birthday. He's changed a lot since we were little kids and gets embarrassed when i want to give him another hug "Goodbye". But the way I see it is he's my brother and I love him a lot. I also feel that it is really important to show the people you care for them because you don't know what is going to happen in life. But for my brother Cam... I wish you the best year yet and having loads of fun times with Rachael!! Farewell for now all!!

Say "Cheese!!!"

For the past eight weeks I've been doing a part~time digital photography course which has been held on Saturdays. It was being run through TAFE for three hours each week between the times of 9:30am to12:30pm. We finished today and I'm so proud of myself for completing it and only missing one lesson. I'll be showing more photos in the future for you... So here is a few examples of the work I've taken over the past weeks.

Radio Station Visit With Mum

On Saturday My Mum and I had a girls afternoon out to Paddington to have a little bit of a look around. We went to a local coffee shop after a magical mystery tour in some of the local back streets there.

After the little tour we went to the appointment that Mum had with the radio station there. The name of the radio station is East Side FM 89.7 where my mum had the interview with. Getting there was really interesting because from the outside it didn't look like a radio station.

When we got in the actual studio it was really cool because it was so quiet so the outside noise wouldn't get in. The reason why we were there was that my Mum and Dad did an IPhone App for cafes. http://itunes.apple.com/au/app/sydney-cafe-culture/id424052529 . Mum did the writing, Dad did the photo's and I also for a few days went around cafes taking photos for Mum as well.

There were a couple of other people on the show talking about cheese, wines and also some type of fruit logs produced locally.They were sampling a couple of brought in wines as well as having a cheese platter. So it was a real foodies on-air convention literally which I found really funny yet cute at the same time. I was sitting in the background hoping that I wouldn't make any noises to disturb them.

For me the last time I was in a radio station was when I was at the ABC radio studio's in Ultimo where I was put in a small booth what they called "The Tardis" for an interview about my book. I was all by myself with headphones and a microphone in front of me waiting for the man to get to me...I also was getting inspired to try to get a radio interview for myself. Yet that's another blogpost.

Today was my Mums moment in the spotlight so I wanted to record it by taking a few photos. Yet when we were at the cafe I found out my camera had run out of batteries so I couldn't take any picture. The only camera I had was on my mobile phone so I used that instead. So I'm sorry if the photo's aren't that good quality yet it was the best I had.

Apart from that the interview went extremely well with a bit of wine and cheese tasted by both my Mum and I. I felt honored to be allowed in the studio with my Mum that day and being included on what she sometimes does for work.... I am so proud of my Mum and Dad it's not funny. I hope that their app goes so well for them because they deserve it.

Down below I'm going to include links about my parents websites. Also the link on the radio station program that my Mum was on and also the link for the lady who was talking about the cheeses. Here they are....


My Parents: Australian Regional Food Guide
http://www.australianregionalfoodguide.com.au/

The Sydney Cafe Culture Iphone App
http://itunes.apple.com/au/app/sydney-cafe-culture/id424052529

Food & Travel
http://www.foodandtravel.com.au/

Eastside FM 89.7:
"Food In Focus" Presented by Natascha Moy
http://eastsidefm.org/lifestyle/foodinfocus/

Cheese:
Claudia Bowman (nee McIntosh) from Mcintosh and Bowman Cheesmongers
http://mcintoshandbowman.com/Home.aspx

Happy Birthday Today Dad!!!

Hey there friends!! Today is a super special day today in a few more ways then one. My Dad was born on this day many years ago which was way before my time. Or even he knew that he was going to be a father as well. Also letting you know that it wasn't my Dad's birthday to day yet it was his mothers birthday as well. His mother happened to be my Grandmother who kept her Scottish accent up until she died. So we used to celebrate both birthday's on that day up until a few years ago. Yet my Grandma is still remembered even though she has passed away.

Talking of my birthday's and my Grandma...she so much wanted a daughter after having a couple of boys. She even picked out a girls name for the baby to be. There won't be any prizes for those who guess right yet I'd like to hear what your guess's are... So please let me know....
Anyway as history tells a little baby boy was born to my Grandparents.

Many years have past where he had many and also experiences in his journey. He went to college where he met his wife who is now my Mum. A bit of time passed and they had two kids including me. No his life as a Dad has been interesting and hard also testing sometimes. That's been from me being his daughter I think having Asperger's. Yet my brother and I combined have given them both a few grey hairs.

I got a bit sidelined there yet the bottom line is he is the best Dad out. Sure over the years we have had our disagreements as father and daughter yet I still love him! For anyone who's read my book you can testify to that. So my Dad, my old young man, my father I wish you the best Happy Birthday out!! Love your only daughter....Megan... oxoxoxoxxooxox

"Taste Of Sydney Show"

Here's just a few photo's I took of the day that I spent with my Mum, my brothers girlfriend and a friend of hers. I also met Manu from 'My Kitchen Rules' cooking fame.