A New Diagnosis For Me.

Hello there everyone. You've more than likely noticed that I have been very quiet on "My Life With Asperger's" blog, Facebook page and group. I've been quiet for several different reason's and some have been quite complicated and hard as well. I've been wanting to write on my blog for a long time yet haven't really known how to even start...
I'm starting now because I feel it is important to speak up and help destigmatize a few things which are important. This has been a long and complicated story yet it is my story..
So here it is:
Something happened in September last year in 2019 which really scared me. I was lucky to get out of it without anything worse happening to me luckily. Yet after that I went downhill in a lot of ways and really fast. In early December my treating Doctor officially diagnosed me with PTSD.
If any of you have read my book "My Life With Asperger's" then you know my history of my story.    For those of you that don't know then a long story short is back in my 20's I was involved in a very toxic and very abusive relationship. Domestic violence hit me in the face literally and it hit me for a six. There were a few times where I thought that I would die and feared for my life. Saying that I wasn't perfect either as with most relationships. I acted in ways that I didn't think that I could.. Yet it was mainly out of fear.
 So since that relationship for many, many years until today I was getting flashbacks, triggers, memories, nightmares, avoiding places etc... I also still feel a lot of shame and guilt as well because I kept on going back. I did stupid things because I believed that we could work things out. It was like a battered wife syndrome kind of relationship. I still can't believe that I was in such a relationship. During the relationship I was called a slut and so many other abusive words. Yet a couple of years after I learned that my partner with whom I was living with actually was seeing one or two people behind my back. Basically since my early 20's with that relationship I have been living with undiagnosed PTSD. Also luckily throughout the years I have never run into her anywhere. If I ran into her somewhere I would probably have a heart attack, faint or something. I wouldn't know what to do with myself at all.
After this relationship I was never the same again. I can't describe it yet a part of me has been lost or stolen in more ways then one. The after effects have affected every part of my life in countless ways..
So that's what's happened to me in the last couple of months...

Mental Health Awareness

I've just been looking on the internet and am feeling a bit confused about when and where Mental Health Awareness month is? It looks to me that it is different from America, World, Britain and Australia. So here's me wanting to support it somehow yet I'm getting different messages from different places....No wonder I'm muddled.

In America it says it's month is May and it started way back in 1949 over there. On the Mental Health America website they have got quite a bit on their nation wide campaign. Here's the link below:
http://www.mentalhealthamerica.net/go/may

Another site which I presume is Australian say that Beyond Blue’s Anxiety and Depression Awareness Month happens in October which is five months away. So Australia seems to be different from the rest of the world... Here is the link I've found:
http://blog.thepastoralcompany.com/?p=864

Then I've found another site as well which seems to be really informative yet overloaded with a lot on a different day... or week...or a month. I basically tells you all the observances that are happening in May this year in a lot of different countries around the world. Here is this link:
http://www.whathealth.com/awareness/may.html

Yet I must say that in my small amount of travels on the web doing some research that I didn't find much on Autism, Asperger's and ASD awareness which was sad to see. It seems to me that there are a lot of different causes, illnesses, ailments etc... that are trying to get the public's attention also in different countries. So I wouldn't be surprised if people were wearing different types of hats or ribbons on any particular day around the world.

It also brings home the fact that it is rather good to have different times to help spread the word on all these different issues. Because one day we might end up needing help from a different foundation or something.... None of us ever really does know what's around the corner in life so it is great people are trying to raise awareness on nearly everything....

All of us are really lucky for living in more of an aware world from about a hundred years ago. Also how all the medical technology has caught up to and do such wonders with the magnificent human body. So I should count myself blessed for living in such an amazing age....something for you to think about...